Back To The Feature: This week Becci Davis (34) speaks to herself at 27. Please take a look a her blog TheUnNaturalMother.co.uk to find out more about her…
Dear 27 yr old Becci ,
You don’t know how strong you can be until being strong is your only choice.
You don’t know this yet Becci but today is the 1st day of the rest of your life. Today you find the strength to scrape yourself off the floor, stop feeling sorry for yourself and get on with it. Today you hit rock bottom and the only way is up.
It’s going to take you many years to realize this Becci but today was a good day. Something in you died last night but in its place strength was born. Things go wrong in the future you are going to remember this dark day and draw on its strength. When your beautiful daughter becomes critically ill in hospital you do not breakdown or sob, you sit by her bedside for 7 days straight and you stay strong and pray to whatever God is listening to you. When she recovers and weeks later the shock of those 7 days encases your soul you fight back and exorcise the dark thoughts from your mind. Though no one ever say the words but you will fight PND.
Becci today is not going to be easy but you need to go through this day to become me, mummy of 2, wife, successful career and most of all importantly HAPPY. The dark cloud of fear will always be waiting to takeover but you will never let it come in. Be proud of yourself Becci , as you become the dream
that ended your nightmares.
Love your older wiser self (now 34)